Comments on: Bane

By: jenni

jenni — Mon, 29 Jun 2009 22:26:28 +0000

great post, anna. i hate being the fat funny girl.

By: Sarah, Goon Squad Sarah

Sarah, Goon Squad Sarah — Sat, 27 Jun 2009 23:17:50 +0000

<3 <3 <3

I think I love you.

You can stand by me. I guarantee I’ll be more worried about my weight than you are.

By: Kerry

Kerry — Sat, 27 Jun 2009 00:53:51 +0000

Trust me, if you saw me now, you wouldn’t hate. I am as size-12’ed as the next chick. I started Weight Watchers online last Monday, but then Tuesday the flavor of the day at Kopp’s Frozen Custard was Red Velvet, so that ended that. Then Wednesday I thought I’d try again, but it was really hot, and when it’s hot you need ice cream, or else you might die of…heat. Or something. Then yesterday we went to the Brewers/Twins game, and I am certainly not going to go all the way to the ballpark with two un-napped children and not eat. Then today…well, I was pretty good today, until we went for a walk that led to a stop at a place called Winkie’s that sells good candy. So maybe tomorrow. Except that I actually MADE ice cream today, and it will be ready tomorrow…so not tomorrow either.

That’s pretty much how my week has gone since, oh, 2000 or so. If they had methadone for dessert-addicts, I would totally not even wait for FDA approval.

By: anna

anna — Fri, 26 Jun 2009 23:17:03 +0000

@maggie, yes, I’ve tried to get rid of the thing I have with trying to control what other people think of me. I think that weight is one of the areas that is hardest for me to exorcise. No pun intended. Seriously.

@schmutzie, cool!

@eliz, we can commiserate. I’ll be the one in the corner acting like Janaene Garofalo. That’s how I always picture myself–the funny but not so attractive sidekick.

@Kerry, well I won’t hate you since you have a normal metabolism now, I guess. But you’re escaping by the skin of your teeth. And yeah, it’s the emotional one. Weezy is the person who married us! But you’re right, she’s beautiful.

By: Kerry

Kerry — Fri, 26 Jun 2009 21:34:06 +0000

Weezy--I carefully studied all of Anna's photos to find your butt. Is it the one in the "Daddy got a little emotional picture?" Because you look fine. In fact, why don't you come to Milwaukee, because around here, that's called Skinny Bitch, and we glare at you and try to get you to eat frozen custard. Also, your hair is fabulous. So you're a skinny bitch with good hair. I'm glaring in your direction (assuming you're west of me...otherwise I'm just glaring west for no reason). I was REALLY skinny until I was 30, with absolutely no effort on my part. Imagine my surprise to find that that metabolism doesn't last forever. I'm glad I live someplace that is a little more forgiving about that sort of thing than Southern California was.

By: eliz

eliz — Fri, 26 Jun 2009 20:14:33 +0000

My weight has made me so self-conscious I’m amazed I get anything done. It’s probably why I don’t have any emotional energy left to make changes. I am having major anxiety over BlogHer because I know I’m going to overcompensate by being funny. Which is all great, and I can slay a room like nobody’s business, but it comes from a place of insecurity. A friend told me the other day that I remind her of Kathy Griffin. Fantastic. So is it so crazy for me to believe that I’d appear smarter if I were thinner, that I am being judged by my body? No wonder my self-image is approaching dysmorphic.

By: schmutzie

schmutzie — Fri, 26 Jun 2009 18:48:12 +0000

You are being featured on Five Star Friday!
http://www.fivestarfriday.com/2009/06/five-star-fridays-edition-60.html

By: maggie, dammit

maggie, dammit — Fri, 26 Jun 2009 16:14:49 +0000

You’ve hit it, Anna, this, right here: “what if the perception that is being portrayed there is not what I want it to be?”

THAT is where the problem lies, probably with both of us. For me, I definitely have an intense need to shape other people’s perceptions of me. I can’t stand it if I think someone doesn’t like me, if I think they’ve misinterpreted my intentions, if OMG THEY ARE TALKING ABOUT ME — it makes sense, then, that I would feel the same way about people judging my weight/appearance. Why is this? Honestly, what does it really matter? We OBVIOUSLY can’t control what other people think, and therefore it HAS to be more about them than us. It has to be.

Thanks for making me think.

By: anna

anna — Fri, 26 Jun 2009 15:52:16 +0000

Awww, weezy! I didn’t even think of your butt, I was thinking, hey I can sort of put weezy on the site, without putting her on the site, cool. I’m sorry to make you feel bad, I think you look beautiful.

@Chris, thanks, you’re kind. I am not fishing for compliments, I swear: I just had a panic attack earlier this week about this and had to get it out.

By: weezy

weezy — Fri, 26 Jun 2009 15:28:55 +0000

I feel your pain. I really do — seeing that picture of my butt on your wedding pictures made me realize (a) my butt was huge then and (b) I weigh 30 pounds more now than I did then and can’t fit into that dress now.

Your weight gain and the clothes still fitting, however, point to the benefits of all those spin classes: the more compact and heavier muscle tissue that you’ve developed has replaced the lighter but larger fat cells for a zero net change in your size.